Photo credit to Veri Ivanova.
I’m worried that if I blink, everything will end.
I know, a little dramatic, right? But it feels like just a few weeks ago I was ten at Bible Camp, playing Gaga Ball with the other kids and having the time of my life.
This next summer, I’ll be staffing at that camp.
And it feels like a few minutes ago it was the beginning of the basketball season, and I was nervous and uncomfortable as I sat down on the bleachers, terrified that no one would want to get to know me and that I’d have to sit by myself.
Basketball season ended with a bang this last weekend, finishing everything up with a huge overnight tournament. I have a large group of amazing, funny, and kind friends around me who I miss already. I’m counting down the weeks till the season starts again.
And in a few short weeks, I’ll officially be a sophomore instead of a freshman. Dang, that sounds old. I know it sounds funny. But I only have three years of this wonderful, difficult, beautiful teenage-dom left? I hate that.
It all goes so incredibly fast and it leaves me with a bittersweet ache. Memories blur, but remain in fragments. The world spins on. But sometimes I stop and literally quake, fearing that, if I blink, I’ll find myself an eighty year old with my life behind me.
Before you know it, your siblings will move out of the house.
Before you know it, you’ll be moving out of the house.
Before you know it, your kids will be moving out of the house.
Before you know it, you'll leave your house and your kids.
Savor every moment. Make it all worth it. Don’t waste the precious time.
Everything can go in a blink.
You know, I couldn't relate more. I literally remember clearly when I was three, I thought to myself, "Oh no! I'm going to be four soon. Time passes so fast. I won't be a baby anymore! And I have to go to school soon!" Now look. Just wait until I'm an old lady. 😂
Honestly, though. It's so important to live in the moment. A lot of people (myself included at times) spend so much time worrying about their future, or yearning for something to happen in the future, that they don't realize that God is blessing them even now. What a good reminder to remember to savor the present!
You're going to be a sophmore in a few weeks?? How?
Very good, by the way. :)
Wow, this is really good! Now you’re making me miss the years I’ve already spent in high school. Sophomores old, gee I’m going to be a senior XD
A good reminder. Although, thinking about where I am now (college freshman, legal adult, trying to figure out where to go from here) compared to where I was in middle school... I'm honestly glad it feels far in the past. Every season of life has its pros.
Wow, loved this post, Emma. You already know that I have a fascination with passing time, so this especially hit hard. God has a plan - it is just up to us to slow down, set aside our want to control, and let Him show us what's He's doing in the moment.
And you think a sophomore sounds old? I'll be a senior 😭